- tamaulipas
- Clearly my name is not Tamaulipas. Tamaulipas is one of the 31 states of Mexico and is located in the northeast. In Malay language, it can literally means 'do not want cockroach'. Basically, I am rambling about things on my mind.
Friday, October 04, 2013
My life was Ramadan ago
A name that means My Life shall be called HI. Whom I met during Ramadan. She persuaded me to break fast at UIA and then to do qiyam. Which was good. That night i met her, she was nervous. But we talked. She wont really looked at me but continue cutting pieces of paper for her event next day. Somehow she was too agitated. The morning after qiyam when I had to go I saw that she was about to cry which she later confessed that she cried. That was weird. Because we just met. How could i had such a big impact on her? She said she hate departing from me? Well, again that was weird.
Wednesday, September 04, 2013
Istanbul aku datang, translated using Google Translate without any modification, original post at my other blog.
Long journey . I got to be at the airport at 11:30 pm na . Check-in counters open just about an hour after that. Luckily I already do web check in . Q for web check in is only short , unlike ordinary sangaaat check in. long . Last check in directly in without waste any more time . Ye, 3.30am flight . So I walked back in the bathroom rather quiet airport to waste time . Stomach feels hungry , I finally decided to stop eating at a small shop that sells food tengah2 airport kopitiam . I ordered teh tarik and toast , sempoi . Pay last meal , teh tarik Rs 9 and 9:50 toast . Plus tax and service charge RM21.15 total . Wow indeed expensive . But this rude airport prices , make a straight face , JE pay .
I walked back and forth, and stop eating just now have the time passed . 2.30 I continue to boarding . Gate 34 'm not mistaken , people already started to line up . When I turn up , I failed to read punye boarding pass . Rupa2nya I upgraded to business class by Qatar Airways , said the economy class is full. Thank God, this is also very attractive .
Ok , bisness chair class was enjoyable. In addition to spacious leg room , seat so he can bed , so I can lie down with delicious and a further shock seat back massage function tu no sikit2 . Alright although JAP feel very . He had been good STEWARDESS kind . Yerlaa right class business services . I sat sebelaah uncle from Canada , came to the project kat Malaysia Tasik Kenyir , let him now I do not quite understand slang canada him . So ok la , kitorang not even say much , yer la flight night , masing2 tired.
Flight ni kat transit doha, when out of plane O God it feels warm once , got up stairs je la out , even if casual gitu 6am , air baahang already feel the heat . When you 're down the stairs tu pulak kene bus ride , and sent us to the transit hall, was crowded , many giler people, I could pray there kat dawn , dawn yuk la , do not know why berapaa at dawn exhausted , after all, although new at 6 doha morning hours , days 'm snagat bright and warm.
Memmang many people over the airprot . Reason gate to gate flight to Istanbul this same flight to Jakarta , I realized many people giler Indonesian plane sitting around waiting for them . 'm Kind picnic , that's why they butcher ni je kat floor sitting cross-legged in droves .
After the gate is open , we are waiting for a bus kene . This bus will take us to the plane. Far too la travel in a bus, almost half an hour . Doha airport is very particular area, but not connected with the transit terminal or other terminal , aircraft parking jauh2 hand , so kene la bus ride to get there . So in my heart always say , KLIA airport was far more best. No need to take the bus to the plane and did not feel the direct heat of the outside air .
Reach our airplane stairs on the plane . The reason this time I was not given an upgrade , then I'm with other economic passenger boarding through the back door. Sunguh feel the smallest state seat area and not business class, fairly narrow foot space dahlah fathom why parking was under seat box to coat jacket life park , so my legs are going to be tight x can la forward. Smaller ones so I finally fell asleep several times .
After 4 hours in flight finally came to Istanbul international airport. Reach their imigeren officer , ok je , although xde visa in my passport , I do not need to fill out the form apa2 , for their je kat passport he then key in their tu Something and after my passport stamped . JAP said apa2 already . I have been quite surprised by how easy it is going to get into Turkey this.
After taking luggage on the conveyor belt , I thus follow signs to the metro , pity Istanbul shopping cart machine for damaged , never thought to buy JE pouring one way ticket , so I climb back on the arrival and headed towards the taxi . Travel to the sultan ahmet take half an hour and the taxi uncle 're not fluent in Bahasa Inggeris . So quiet je la me along the way . But when reaching the street jam sultan ahmet tu , tu uncle told so , that I walk up on to the Hagia Sofia, the closer he je . I got down okay , 40.90 meters but when I show for 50 lira , JE rude uncle said xde want to thank you for remaining single , Alright I bior jer la x understand why he even told me so . I got out and headed toward Hagi sofia, far jugak la I think I pulled the bag. Dahla hilly roads . Within 40 minutes of this I just met , that's already berpusing2 reason I take the wrong . Many people also rebuked this turkey going to ask where , but because I read a lot of scam blog2 turkish ni kat , I sort of afraid to laayan diorang . That's the way je , although x reluctant to know where it is .
Check in the hotel is quite easy , because I 'm a reservation through booking.com . This person just mintak passport and credit cards . I'm a hotel name Hotel Old City , close to the Hagia Sofia betul2 . In the room I 've got scenery Hagia Sofia are very clear . Now the light is still visible when I write this blog .
'm In the bathroom first , best bathroom because he was quite strong and the shower water also best , lukewarm water . After bathing, sleeping , baring2 bed because you feel very tired and feel like a fever. Nose even delicious raw kid je drain .
Baring2 , slept until the evening . Last prayers were to go down to look around . Still lively despite already 9pm. No event for the korean people to promote their country . End can also buy newspaper kiosk near Istanbul cart . 7 lira card price and he can fill in the number that we want . I'm 20 lira first. How did see tomorrow I use it . Suddenly feel lazy to move on, feet still feel tired , and because I sorang2 way , I feel a little scared to move on, after all this terki friendly people giler , abstinence Jalan2 I saw this , there are going to criticize JE . I 've read lazy catering kat reason other blog2 about meereka scam , fear itself pulak kat hit . He did not want the first day of a scam kene kan dah . So I pound back to the hotel and write to this blog entry .
I walked back and forth, and stop eating just now have the time passed . 2.30 I continue to boarding . Gate 34 'm not mistaken , people already started to line up . When I turn up , I failed to read punye boarding pass . Rupa2nya I upgraded to business class by Qatar Airways , said the economy class is full. Thank God, this is also very attractive .
Ok , bisness chair class was enjoyable. In addition to spacious leg room , seat so he can bed , so I can lie down with delicious and a further shock seat back massage function tu no sikit2 . Alright although JAP feel very . He had been good STEWARDESS kind . Yerlaa right class business services . I sat sebelaah uncle from Canada , came to the project kat Malaysia Tasik Kenyir , let him now I do not quite understand slang canada him . So ok la , kitorang not even say much , yer la flight night , masing2 tired.
Flight ni kat transit doha, when out of plane O God it feels warm once , got up stairs je la out , even if casual gitu 6am , air baahang already feel the heat . When you 're down the stairs tu pulak kene bus ride , and sent us to the transit hall, was crowded , many giler people, I could pray there kat dawn , dawn yuk la , do not know why berapaa at dawn exhausted , after all, although new at 6 doha morning hours , days 'm snagat bright and warm.
Memmang many people over the airprot . Reason gate to gate flight to Istanbul this same flight to Jakarta , I realized many people giler Indonesian plane sitting around waiting for them . 'm Kind picnic , that's why they butcher ni je kat floor sitting cross-legged in droves .
After the gate is open , we are waiting for a bus kene . This bus will take us to the plane. Far too la travel in a bus, almost half an hour . Doha airport is very particular area, but not connected with the transit terminal or other terminal , aircraft parking jauh2 hand , so kene la bus ride to get there . So in my heart always say , KLIA airport was far more best. No need to take the bus to the plane and did not feel the direct heat of the outside air .
Reach our airplane stairs on the plane . The reason this time I was not given an upgrade , then I'm with other economic passenger boarding through the back door. Sunguh feel the smallest state seat area and not business class, fairly narrow foot space dahlah fathom why parking was under seat box to coat jacket life park , so my legs are going to be tight x can la forward. Smaller ones so I finally fell asleep several times .
After 4 hours in flight finally came to Istanbul international airport. Reach their imigeren officer , ok je , although xde visa in my passport , I do not need to fill out the form apa2 , for their je kat passport he then key in their tu Something and after my passport stamped . JAP said apa2 already . I have been quite surprised by how easy it is going to get into Turkey this.
After taking luggage on the conveyor belt , I thus follow signs to the metro , pity Istanbul shopping cart machine for damaged , never thought to buy JE pouring one way ticket , so I climb back on the arrival and headed towards the taxi . Travel to the sultan ahmet take half an hour and the taxi uncle 're not fluent in Bahasa Inggeris . So quiet je la me along the way . But when reaching the street jam sultan ahmet tu , tu uncle told so , that I walk up on to the Hagia Sofia, the closer he je . I got down okay , 40.90 meters but when I show for 50 lira , JE rude uncle said xde want to thank you for remaining single , Alright I bior jer la x understand why he even told me so . I got out and headed toward Hagi sofia, far jugak la I think I pulled the bag. Dahla hilly roads . Within 40 minutes of this I just met , that's already berpusing2 reason I take the wrong . Many people also rebuked this turkey going to ask where , but because I read a lot of scam blog2 turkish ni kat , I sort of afraid to laayan diorang . That's the way je , although x reluctant to know where it is .
Check in the hotel is quite easy , because I 'm a reservation through booking.com . This person just mintak passport and credit cards . I'm a hotel name Hotel Old City , close to the Hagia Sofia betul2 . In the room I 've got scenery Hagia Sofia are very clear . Now the light is still visible when I write this blog .
'm In the bathroom first , best bathroom because he was quite strong and the shower water also best , lukewarm water . After bathing, sleeping , baring2 bed because you feel very tired and feel like a fever. Nose even delicious raw kid je drain .
Baring2 , slept until the evening . Last prayers were to go down to look around . Still lively despite already 9pm. No event for the korean people to promote their country . End can also buy newspaper kiosk near Istanbul cart . 7 lira card price and he can fill in the number that we want . I'm 20 lira first. How did see tomorrow I use it . Suddenly feel lazy to move on, feet still feel tired , and because I sorang2 way , I feel a little scared to move on, after all this terki friendly people giler , abstinence Jalan2 I saw this , there are going to criticize JE . I 've read lazy catering kat reason other blog2 about meereka scam , fear itself pulak kat hit . He did not want the first day of a scam kene kan dah . So I pound back to the hotel and write to this blog entry .
Saturday, May 04, 2013
Yesterday, the Friday I met NJZ
We were texting a trying to set a date to meet when she got back last week, for a 3-week land-off here in the homeland. Alas, she gave in a date yesterday, for me to meet her for lunch. I took a half day since I won't be advisable to drive all the way to her place in the afternoon and then had to go back to the office. I went for Friday prayer over there. It was a small but a newly built/renovated mosque in the vicinity of a condominium. After the prayer I call her and she told me to park somewhere near the Petron and walked to a bank nearby where she would pick me up. It was then I learnt that she wanted me to meet her parents. Well, I was suddenly having butterfly in my stomach, then she took me to her family office which is nearby to that bank and I was told to sit. She called in her mom and luckily her dad was still at the mosques so I didn't get to meet him. She told me that her parents want to see who her daughter is going out with, whomever it is, not just me, so she told me that this was actually a normal practice. Her mom looked nice, and she asked me few questions like am I on leave or something then reminded me not to spend so much time with her daughter.
So we went out, and as she was about to bring me at a Mamak restaurant, I told her I want to go somewhere else. I said I want to bring her somewhere cooler, air-conditioned. So we walked to my car which was blocked by a truck loading some stuff into the petrol station. I had to give some honking to expedite the process that was going on inside.
We arrived at the malay restaurant ordered fish fried with 3-flavored souce, kangkung belacan and a seafood tom-yam. She was good to me, putting some of the dishes to my plated before hers, and of-course I was touched by the hospitality.
We had so much to talk about, my new office, her PhD, etc but somehow I didn't go about to ask her about marriage and how serious I am. Well, it could be attributed to her plan of working at least a year after finishing her PhD, which she will be rushing to do and thus having little time to think about other things and definitely I did not want to put more stuff into her thinking process. Then I dropped her around 4.
There was so much running in my mind after dropping her off. I need to process the overwhelming situation as whether I want to wait and pursue her or find somebody else. Is it normal for me to be seeing her mom? Well, she said her parents want to see any friend that is bringing her out, so I guessed that was not really a big deal. If I were to wait for her then I would spent more than a year waiting and unmarried. I really want to settle down but of course with someone I really like. She was kind to me, smart and pretty. She have the total package and the family business is really holly, i.e. to do some printing associated with religious knowledge.
She texted me later in the evening thanking me for the lunch and how she would do the same for me once she got to work. But I am thinking, that would be like another year or so. So the fact that she would not be ready at the moment (or at least in the near future) to settle down is really a deal breaker to me.
Today, I woke up to see her texted me at 2.49 am (or is Celcom having some issues delivering the message, I wouldn't know) to tell me that I've lost weight since the last two years, well done?
So we went out, and as she was about to bring me at a Mamak restaurant, I told her I want to go somewhere else. I said I want to bring her somewhere cooler, air-conditioned. So we walked to my car which was blocked by a truck loading some stuff into the petrol station. I had to give some honking to expedite the process that was going on inside.
We arrived at the malay restaurant ordered fish fried with 3-flavored souce, kangkung belacan and a seafood tom-yam. She was good to me, putting some of the dishes to my plated before hers, and of-course I was touched by the hospitality.
We had so much to talk about, my new office, her PhD, etc but somehow I didn't go about to ask her about marriage and how serious I am. Well, it could be attributed to her plan of working at least a year after finishing her PhD, which she will be rushing to do and thus having little time to think about other things and definitely I did not want to put more stuff into her thinking process. Then I dropped her around 4.
There was so much running in my mind after dropping her off. I need to process the overwhelming situation as whether I want to wait and pursue her or find somebody else. Is it normal for me to be seeing her mom? Well, she said her parents want to see any friend that is bringing her out, so I guessed that was not really a big deal. If I were to wait for her then I would spent more than a year waiting and unmarried. I really want to settle down but of course with someone I really like. She was kind to me, smart and pretty. She have the total package and the family business is really holly, i.e. to do some printing associated with religious knowledge.
She texted me later in the evening thanking me for the lunch and how she would do the same for me once she got to work. But I am thinking, that would be like another year or so. So the fact that she would not be ready at the moment (or at least in the near future) to settle down is really a deal breaker to me.
Today, I woke up to see her texted me at 2.49 am (or is Celcom having some issues delivering the message, I wouldn't know) to tell me that I've lost weight since the last two years, well done?
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
She must politely decline my offer for the time being
So NJZ replied today with a pretty long email explaining her circumstances at the moment. She is really really busy at the moment. But she has thought about the proposal and came to a conclusion that she does not know me too well to say yes or no at the moment. But her answer was stated in the title of this post. It's ok, no harm done. She prays that I will find my soul mate soon.
After some time looking at ceiling while lying on my bed, I called EY just to say hi. She told me that she is making herself busy (she still is not working), she went back to Penang and planning to go to Jakarta.
After some time looking at ceiling while lying on my bed, I called EY just to say hi. She told me that she is making herself busy (she still is not working), she went back to Penang and planning to go to Jakarta.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Ready for another rejection
Always. I am always ready. It's not something new. So I received an email from NJZ that she will reply soon as she was busy with her internship.
She addressed me as Hello my dear X. X being my name.
Well, she likes to confuse me. I am perplexed, why can't she just say Yes or No?
What with her addressing me as "... my dear ..."
Am i being over analyzing?
Is she preparing a letter of rejection? Well, she might be afraid that I might get offended so she addressed me as such?
Well, I am prepared for anything. If she accepts then I will do the necessary arrangement i.e. start by telling my parents.
If otherwise, I will venture out to the open sea with an open heart.
She addressed me as Hello my dear X. X being my name.
Well, she likes to confuse me. I am perplexed, why can't she just say Yes or No?
What with her addressing me as "... my dear ..."
Am i being over analyzing?
Is she preparing a letter of rejection? Well, she might be afraid that I might get offended so she addressed me as such?
Well, I am prepared for anything. If she accepts then I will do the necessary arrangement i.e. start by telling my parents.
If otherwise, I will venture out to the open sea with an open heart.
Sunday, March 17, 2013
If only i can simply choose
Yesterday i went to a conference regarding fiqh and solah, more than 2/3 of the audiences i believe are women. There are some beauties that i wish i can just pick and ask for marriage. They are just beautiful as if the beauty comes from the inside.
How i wish i could just talk to them but it seemed so unappropriate. I should devise a way of getting such girls and such events.
Yesterday just before i went to the conference, i sent a confession email to NJZ, saying how i wish that she will become the mother of my children!
I am yet to hear from her.
How i wish i could just talk to them but it seemed so unappropriate. I should devise a way of getting such girls and such events.
Yesterday just before i went to the conference, i sent a confession email to NJZ, saying how i wish that she will become the mother of my children!
I am yet to hear from her.
Friday, March 15, 2013
The closure, goodbye EY
It was the last phone conversation. Short and direct.
I was no longer feeling the same attraction as before. I don't think us won't work.
So the phone call was just a confirmation that I am not being bad. That I am not dissapearing just like that. I disappear because of a mutual understanding.
Asked her for dinner. She said she had plan tonight. Asked me to ask Aereeta or Su instead. To me it was a complete rejection.
Why I should no longer chase her:
- she was not that beautiful
- she cares too much for her beauty, she went for vitamin c and collagen injection, quite often
- she is hairy, she needs waxing at least once a month
- she is indecisive
- she forgets
- she cares too much of her last ex
- she is a player, she went out with lots of guys wanting to be just friends
- she can be too sexy at times
- she is lazy
- she always wakes up late in the afternoon
- she carries too many baggages, her house is financed by one of her ex
- she used to be pampered by many men, she's spoilt
- she is high maintenance
So goodbye EY.
I lost MA too.
So what's next?
I'm gonna wait till my birthday, then I will propose to NJZ.
In the meantime, I'll open up to new girls.
In sha Allah I will find my true love in China.
I was no longer feeling the same attraction as before. I don't think us won't work.
So the phone call was just a confirmation that I am not being bad. That I am not dissapearing just like that. I disappear because of a mutual understanding.
Asked her for dinner. She said she had plan tonight. Asked me to ask Aereeta or Su instead. To me it was a complete rejection.
Why I should no longer chase her:
- she was not that beautiful
- she cares too much for her beauty, she went for vitamin c and collagen injection, quite often
- she is hairy, she needs waxing at least once a month
- she is indecisive
- she forgets
- she cares too much of her last ex
- she is a player, she went out with lots of guys wanting to be just friends
- she can be too sexy at times
- she is lazy
- she always wakes up late in the afternoon
- she carries too many baggages, her house is financed by one of her ex
- she used to be pampered by many men, she's spoilt
- she is high maintenance
So goodbye EY.
I lost MA too.
So what's next?
I'm gonna wait till my birthday, then I will propose to NJZ.
In the meantime, I'll open up to new girls.
In sha Allah I will find my true love in China.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Ah she made contact
Yesterday she let herself out by saying why I was so quiet.
So i had to reply. I am not that cruel.
We'll see if i wanna call her tonight.
I dont wanna be so cold to her.
So i have decided. Why shouldnt we be friend. I'll be her friends. Nothing more.
I'll continue searching. In the meantime, I'll be hanging out with her from time to time.
Just like any normal friends do.
So i had to reply. I am not that cruel.
We'll see if i wanna call her tonight.
I dont wanna be so cold to her.
So i have decided. Why shouldnt we be friend. I'll be her friends. Nothing more.
I'll continue searching. In the meantime, I'll be hanging out with her from time to time.
Just like any normal friends do.
Monday, February 18, 2013
The closure
During my confession the Sunday before this, I did tell her about wanting to marry her and if she is not ready I am ready to move on and find other girls. She did say that she is not ready since she could not get her ex-boyfriend out of her mind and she will marry with those who will give her the same feeling she once had with her ex, implying that I am not giving her the same vibes thus unsuited to marry her. I kept my cool and suggest a sunset dinner together with her twin the next day.
Monday came and she was quiet so I called her asking about the sunset plan which she appeared to have forgotten, told me that she would confirm with her sister. Later she texted that her sister has some other plans tonight so we can't go out. Well ok, I went sleeping until the sunset and later she called asking me to join them for dinner some place nearby.
Nothing spectacular at the dinner, the three of us ate some malay dishes and separate the bills. Her sister insisted that we go for coffee so we went to Ben's at Publika and later the same sister insisted that we go for massage and thus we went to Kota Damansara. During the late hangout she inquired about the trekking that I've been doing during the past mornings (which I told the about) and asked them to join me tomorrow.
Tuesday came and late afternoon the three of us went on hiking and later dinner with some Korean soups. It was during these times that I started to shift attention more towards her sister and not really focusing on her. Well, I sort of being nonchalant about it.
Oh, during the late hangout on Monday, I took a picture of us acting out as if I was spooning her some foods. The pictures went on viral on the facebook with comments wanting to know if we were actually couple which later she denied on Tuesday night. We are just friends.
Later on Wednesday night, around 11, I called her which she never picked up, later not returning the call until today. So this is an opportunity for me to disappear from her. I will not call her until she make contact with me.
I know I have failed before but this would be the time to check and balance. I would not want to be the one who always call first. Let her do it this time around if she want it. If not then it is time for me to move on.
I wish not wasting anymore time in looking for the one and only wife of mine!
Perhaps this is the opportunity to let go. I shall not feel guilty not calling her because I did call her and she did not picked up nor return my call.
Monday came and she was quiet so I called her asking about the sunset plan which she appeared to have forgotten, told me that she would confirm with her sister. Later she texted that her sister has some other plans tonight so we can't go out. Well ok, I went sleeping until the sunset and later she called asking me to join them for dinner some place nearby.
Nothing spectacular at the dinner, the three of us ate some malay dishes and separate the bills. Her sister insisted that we go for coffee so we went to Ben's at Publika and later the same sister insisted that we go for massage and thus we went to Kota Damansara. During the late hangout she inquired about the trekking that I've been doing during the past mornings (which I told the about) and asked them to join me tomorrow.
Tuesday came and late afternoon the three of us went on hiking and later dinner with some Korean soups. It was during these times that I started to shift attention more towards her sister and not really focusing on her. Well, I sort of being nonchalant about it.
Oh, during the late hangout on Monday, I took a picture of us acting out as if I was spooning her some foods. The pictures went on viral on the facebook with comments wanting to know if we were actually couple which later she denied on Tuesday night. We are just friends.
Later on Wednesday night, around 11, I called her which she never picked up, later not returning the call until today. So this is an opportunity for me to disappear from her. I will not call her until she make contact with me.
I know I have failed before but this would be the time to check and balance. I would not want to be the one who always call first. Let her do it this time around if she want it. If not then it is time for me to move on.
I wish not wasting anymore time in looking for the one and only wife of mine!
Perhaps this is the opportunity to let go. I shall not feel guilty not calling her because I did call her and she did not picked up nor return my call.
Monday, February 11, 2013
The feeling she is longing to have
So yesterday 10 2 2013, i picked her up at KLCC and bring her to BSC because klcc was so packed with people of all backgrounds. I was thinking of eating lunch at Dancing Fish but it was closed at 3. Later I know that it did serve lunch but until 2.30 and will open again around 6 for dinner. So we went to Ben's. I managed to share some knowledge about dajjal and last hours. It was a fruitful share of knowledge which I was longing to share for quite some time. She told me about jarif how she had to turned him down because she is not ready to forget her last boyfriend implying to me the same thing. But i kept my cool and said that i am willing to forget her past if i were to marry her. I told her about my resolution this year that i wanna get married no matter what, with her or someone else, but eventually i will try to find a good wife somehow. It was then I managed to dig deeper into her past, her first love with her boss and how he gave her house to keep her as mistress but she managed to get away but yet receiving the house because it was registered under her name. Well she said she deserved the house because of his actions to her.Her last bf which she cant seem to get him of her mind and dreams stayed in her compound which she sees from time to time and thus the wound continue to bleed. They stayed for around 7 months until one day he changed his behavior and disappeared. He refused her call and she can't find him anywhere. She was heart broken but she still cherished the good sweet moments they had together. She love him. And she need someone to tell her NO when eventually that guy came back and ask her out again. She said she wants that feeling she once had when she were with him.
Saturday, February 09, 2013
Making an ass of myself
I feel stupid today. I spoke to her yesterday and said to have dinner tonight. She said she will have to confirm today. So today I sent her whatsapp messages saying that I will fetch her around 8. She never replied but I saw the double ticks at whatsapp and her last seen is after my messages so i assumed when she was silence then she agreed to whatever I proposed.
So I arrived at her place at the promised time (well, the time that I proposed but she never replied) and called her, which she didn't answer. I sent her another whatsapp message saying that I have arrived! Waited for few minutes then she called. She was surprised! Saying that we never made any promised to go out. She said she did not read my messages. (but she read the ones saying that arrived? ^^) She was with jarif and her twin at Istana Bambu. Asked me to join them, but deep inside I was feeling stupid thus I rejected her offer. So I went back home, sad but then decided to visit my love of all times, Allah the sole creator and lord of mankind and everything He wishes to create. The emptiness was lifted and I felt that maybe E.Y. is not really for me.
On another note, she has been spending too much time (as compared with me) with jarif. Should I be wasting my time? Should I keep assuming that she has feeling for me?
Assuming as I learnt today is making an ass out of myself. I should be certain rather than assuming. I should ask and hear it myself. I could no longer rely on technology. I could no longer assume that my emails, my sms or my messages arrived and read by my intended recipients.
So I need to ask her clearly whether she is playing with me, giving me hopes and I guess when she posted pictures of me and her online, she is just trying to make jarif jealous? Well, again, this is yet another assumption! I need to a serious confirmation from her. I have set a KPI to get married this year so if I am wasting my time with her then I risk not achieving my target!
I need a closure!
So I arrived at her place at the promised time (well, the time that I proposed but she never replied) and called her, which she didn't answer. I sent her another whatsapp message saying that I have arrived! Waited for few minutes then she called. She was surprised! Saying that we never made any promised to go out. She said she did not read my messages. (but she read the ones saying that arrived? ^^) She was with jarif and her twin at Istana Bambu. Asked me to join them, but deep inside I was feeling stupid thus I rejected her offer. So I went back home, sad but then decided to visit my love of all times, Allah the sole creator and lord of mankind and everything He wishes to create. The emptiness was lifted and I felt that maybe E.Y. is not really for me.
On another note, she has been spending too much time (as compared with me) with jarif. Should I be wasting my time? Should I keep assuming that she has feeling for me?
Assuming as I learnt today is making an ass out of myself. I should be certain rather than assuming. I should ask and hear it myself. I could no longer rely on technology. I could no longer assume that my emails, my sms or my messages arrived and read by my intended recipients.
So I need to ask her clearly whether she is playing with me, giving me hopes and I guess when she posted pictures of me and her online, she is just trying to make jarif jealous? Well, again, this is yet another assumption! I need to a serious confirmation from her. I have set a KPI to get married this year so if I am wasting my time with her then I risk not achieving my target!
I need a closure!
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
New member in the house
Yo yo yo. Iphone 5 reporting in. Arrived this afternoon at the office just around lunch time. Ho ho ho. Welcome.
Sunday, January 06, 2013
Broga this morning
So last night she SMS around this time to see whether I'd be interested to climb Broga this morning. I called and confirmed that I'd like to go. I was in Sepang and thought that if I were to spend the night there then it would be too tiring to drive all the way to Ampang to fetch them then all the way to Broga. So I went back to Ampang immediately and set alarm for 3.30 which I woke up and after shower and pooping, I went to her place quite early at 4.15 when we promised to go at 5. So I slept a little bit and luckily having the lovely mini iPad, I killed quite some time. Again, luckily I subscribed to data plan, since I had to use Waze for direction to Broga. We reached there around 5.50 and immediately start the ascend. We reached the third peak which is about 400m from the sea level at around 6.45. We could go faster if it were not for so many people ascending at about the same time since it was a Sunday.
After resting and taking pictures, we descend and reach the car around 8.30. Then we went to Raju's for some healty breakfast.
Publishing the pictures of us, and her twin and her friends, am I publicly announcing our relationship? Gosh, I hope that wouldn't end up like zaarrif.
After resting and taking pictures, we descend and reach the car around 8.30. Then we went to Raju's for some healty breakfast.
Publishing the pictures of us, and her twin and her friends, am I publicly announcing our relationship? Gosh, I hope that wouldn't end up like zaarrif.
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