General Behavior of Girl 1

Girl will always try to hide her feelings.
but i think i can sense the feeling by the way she gaze at me.
at times trying to look at me when i think i did not see.
when i also have have crush on her.

A constant shows of interest on a girl will make her aware of you.
She will then give you chance. but i will never know what is in her mind.

End of Things

Its the end of the month, when i thought that its already the beginning.
I am busy but i feel that i am really make full use of my time.

it is good that i started reading the book thoroughly.
i am beginning to understand the subjects.

it is true that ramadan has passed. i am now beginning to hear whispers of the syaitan.
oh now so i start blaming the syaitan and the deeds that i done only to satisfy me.
however, i am glad that i am still in control of my hunger.
everyday since the start of syawwal still feel like fasting.
but, i am unable to go for the subooh in the masjid.
i woke up, shut the clock up and went back to sleep.
it is really hard to drag yourself out of the bed when its only 5 in the morning.
and plus it is really cold and the only place to be is inside my bed.
someday perhaps i can push myself.
O God, please help me.

Some people now value more privacy as i did.
Lock the door behind so no one can get in. and disturb him.
it is when we need focus that we actually tried.

I have problem with me.
I have problem with her.
I think she likes me. but am unable to confirm.
Would i ask? NO
i know that i am SHY. so does everyone else.
i could never talk properly with girls who have crush on me (i think)
when i am indeed having crush on her.
but let it be that way. i think its better.
so let time decides.

Beautiful

A beautiful reading by a beautiful creation of God.

I Write Sins Not Tragedies

Oh, well imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words.
"What a beautiful wedding!, What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"Ah yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I chimed in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I chimed in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of hope.

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for, a toast so, pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne.

I chimed in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I chimed in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again..

I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No.
It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again..

PANIC! AT THE DISCO

Blame yourself when something goes wrong?!

Blaming <__>

When something goes wrong I tend to blame others. but after a while I will regret. why not blaming myself. what i did or did not do that somehow has created the problems. but blaming others is the best way to feel good about yourself. you feel relieved instantly. but the feeling was not permanent. when i am alone. i always think about the past. looking back, it was really my fault. i can always think of a way that i would do differently that could avoid the problem. it is me inside i should blame. but blaming oneself too much and too often can lead to depression. so it is good to find the balck sheep/goat or? i am not sure. but blaming oneself and reflect is the best way. not blaming oneself in a way that could demoralize you. turn to God. ask for help and you will find calmness in your heart. so it seems to work for me everytime. rather to keep on thingking about it. i let it go. let it go. forget about it and if somebody brought it up i may not even rememebr. so its gone. down the drain. it is always better to start a new scratch. let God be your guidance in this world and the world hereafter.

Disturbed

Feeling a desire to be lonely. to reflect and think.
with others by my side i feel uneasy. i feel like escaping.
so i locked the door outside. so no one can get in.
i walk. alone and keep quiet. the feeling inside was so heavy.
after a while. nope a night. and a morning. i feel relieved.
i have think it through and reflect.
sometimes we just need to stop and think.
and to think carefully. we need focus.
i have always this feeling when i see him.
i feel uneasy. i think he is not being reall.
but it is just my thought? after a heavy thought.
ihave decide to ignore it. and get along with everyone.
forget the past and move on.
forget the problems and start a new beginning.
when the feeling starts again. i will stop and think.
yesterday was fruitless. slept a lot.
maybe its the rain?

Fascinating Quran

Quran, the book from Allah. Revealed to Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. through angel Gibrael first at the cave of Hira'. Quran like no other book can not be reproduced by anyone to match its superior quality of writing. Quran like no other book contains all the information from the past to the present. Whatever is being told in the Quran can somehow be related to what happen in the present or even the future. Likewise, we should be learning from the history of the past. Just look at the early generation of mankind. How they behave and the consequences of their doings.

Honey I'm Home...

rofl, lol.

Half way through ... almost

When Ramadan came, I am afraid that I wont be having enough time to do things. But Allah has show me the ways. Show me things I never know I can do. Interestingly, one can do so many things without eating during the day. Without lunch, I still find energy within to do cardio. I can squench the thirst. Wait till the time to break the fast. At night, I anticipate the feeling of congregational prayer of Isya and tarawih. Not to forget the exciting feeling of iftar. Sitting together and pray to those who serve the food that day. Food has never been the problem. Eating too much can cause discomfort. While eating moderately will ensure you last the night till midnight. Yet with more time spend towards Allah, I can still finish my assignments on time. Reflecting, it was playing games too much that has been the problem. I feel free without games. I sleep on time, wake on time and feel refresh during the day. My eyes no more become tired during the day. It is now that I will uninstall the games that I have. Amin. Let Allah be always in my heart.