Sunday, May 22, 2011

I won't call back, NJZ.

I am not sorry not to call back.
I think I know too well what you want to say.
You want to say sorry you did not call back.
You want to say you're overwhelmed.
You want to say how you have been too busy.
You want to say how much you want to talk to me.
You want to say that you regret not doing this and that.
But you lost me at Langkawi.
So I guess that would be your last call.
And I won't be available for you.
For the eternity that I am seeing.
So long and have fun there.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Seizure I saw

Yesterday, Monday 16 May 2011. The day I that I thought I could relax and go fun n easy. Nonetheless, the morning started with urgent meeting by Dato Azman and I had to take the minutes. It was a quick meeting discussing updates on such events that are happening today. Dato Azman was on leave so he left immediately after the meeting. I, had to gather the strength to venture for the rest of the day. Well, I finished the minutes and sent to the PA of Dato Azman for endorsement.

Well the went quite normal as any other working day until around 4.20 pm. I went a colleague place to chit chat as it is more than 4 pm and I need some refreshment from mundane work. So there he was sitting at his place typing on his keyboard but i was not really looking at him as someone else appeared from the pantry that i needed to apologized since i missed her wedding invitation. suddenly i heard my friend/colleague producing a strange sound, some sort of hissing sound from him like gasping for air straight into his lung. I looked at him aghast, he was having spasm, his hand, his face were experiencing sudden contraction, his eyes were rolling up, his jaw was jerking looking as if he was experiencing pain but he was not responding to my talking, suddenly he was pushed backwards, sort of standing up due to his leg stretching out pushing him away, backwards, against the cubicle wall, against the chair, he was falling down, sliding smoothly onto the floor and yet he was still spasming.

He was on the floor unconscious, yet his body was stiff, he was not responding to my shouting, so I panicked and asked for help, two ladies that I was talking to shouted for help. It was a panic mode for everyone, people were running, rushing to his cubicle. Another lady called the ambulance. Few men went to his side, asking for water and then wiped his face with water. They called his name and he started to regain consciousness, acknowledging the people around him.

The medical team arrived. Took his blood pressure which was high at 160. By then he was awake, the ambulance was outside. The medical team asked whether he had experience seizure before, so I called his brother and asked, while telling him what happened. So this was his first time having seizure.

We took him to the ambulance. He tried to walk on his own, asking for his stuff i.e. glasses, phone and wallet. But he was not fully himself, he seemed lost, not knowing what had happened, he was not walking straight, he looked dizzy so we put him on a chair - normal office chair with wheel - and pushed him to the ambulance.

We took him to the nearest hospital which is only few minute drive. His brother managed to arrived at the hospital at the same time we arrived at the hospital. He was admitted to the emergency room. He was awake and dumbfounded. He did not remember anything since 4 pm. The last thing he remembered was walking towards the office, but did not remember that he had ever entered the office or sat in his cubicle.

The doctors are still figuring out what's wrong with him. They confirmed that his brain is ok. I suspected that he did not have enough rest. Too tired. Just too tired. Like a computer that has been running for so long that it hang. Then it restarted. Ergo, explaining the few minutes of his lost memory. Just like a computer that hang, some unsaved work become lost forever.