resolutions

This is the time of the year when i will start reflecting and thinking on what i have done, what i could have done and what i would do next. This is the time of the year when i would be receiving new calendars and diary to start on a new leaf. I already hang the new ones and threw the old ones away. Looking at the dates, I first make notes on the public holidays for the year and start thinking on the possible dates for my holiday to kuching or elsewhere in the world.

so of course there are things i think i should have done, therefore it has to be carry forward the year is coming to an end really fast. for the muslim, the new year starts a few days earlier which is tomorrow. the new year in islam starts after the first migration of the muslim to medina to start on a new life. similarly, i should be starting new life beginning from tomorrow, similar things i have been doing for over twenty years. but years come and go and do not remember if i have started new life each time the year changes.

i can do it, i can change to a new me. yeah i mean it, i am feeling really serious right now. because i am supposed to be better each day. but i have waited, for i should not have waited because when i wait nothing will happen.

sometimes it is funny because after a while the strength in me will just fade away and often i will blame the surrounding. i am blaming that someone or something has stole my future, letting me down and under.

but of course i could not do it just like that without full intervention from GOD. i need to pray and ask for guidance. so of course, the need for solid notes for what i am planning to do in 2009 is crucial so that i could always refer to it later:

1. be less mean, but it is not quantifiable. so i should put something realistic on how less mean i should be. being less mean to anyone is to be humble and down to earth. listen to ideas but be firm with my statements.
2. be more friendly, greet people and get to know others. you know, when we meet someone new at a meeting or conference, i seldom ask for names but just making trivial conversation. although i would not want to invade for any privacy, i should at least make an effort to remember name and faces.
3. be on time as i hate to wait, therefore i should be assuming that no ones like to wait for others because time is too precious to be spent to wait on someone for too long.
   
4. be more understanding, by trying to be on someone else shoes.
5. be more committed to things i am doing, especially in helping others. i would not want to promise anyone anything but in the end would only be doing it halfheartedly.
6. be more focus on what i want. by not beating around the bush but to be direct to the point. i should not be assuming that people are able to read my mind. so i should be telling them what i want instead of giving never ending hint.
7. not to be too greedy with anything. because what we get, we need to share, i.e. money, knowledge, food, etc.
   

Ho Ho Ho

Ho ho ho reminds me of my former employees, the two big guys from turkey who look like Santa Claus. they used to say "ho ho ho" quite often and i don't really remember why it was said. it was fun working there and the pay was more than ok [8 dollars/hours] and i often got extra when it was a really busy night. the business itself was very efficient, during the peak hours, 4 pm - 8 pm there were only 3 workers, 2 cooks and 1 waiter who will do whatever not related to cooking. and after 8 pm there would be only 1 cook and 1 waiter to wait for the closing of the restaurant at 11 pm. the food i like because it was tastier than anything else in the area. the service as some customer would say it quite slow because most of the main dishes will be cooked only when ordered. these include all sorts of kebab, chicken curry, lamb chop and pizzas. but it was worth the wait because no food will be served unless it was ready to be eaten. there were many regular customers who keep coming back to the restaurant and they always come a bit earlier than anyone else bacause they know that the restaurant will be packed with people eventually.

being the waiter was pretty tough during the peak hours, as there were orders to take, plates to wash, tables to set, dishes to deliver and etc. but when it was quiet, i would cook for myself. [the waiters are only permitted to cook for the themselves and never for the customers, as they never received any sort of training and for the purpose of upholding the good reputation] i would often cook something not in the menu by mixing all the raw ingredients. the favorite of all is putting the meat on top of the rice with sprinkle of mozarella cheese on top and heat it in the oven until the cheese melt to perfection. i believe, there is a similar menu as this at pizza hut but it is a bit pricey while the proportion is small.

i miss working in the restaurant but at the same glad for not having to work there anymore because it was rather tiring coming home after 11pm only to face bunch of friends who were waiting for the extra food that i will bring home from the restaurant. =P but i was ok with it.

don't be mad, babe

to be angry is human nature. it is normal to be angry at some things. but the coolest person is the one who is able to control his or her anger - not to show it in a way that will only tarnish his or her reputation. it is also the sign of maturity. the most matured person is not the eldest, but the coolest who is able to withstand any form of challenges with steady mind, which i dearly respect. luckily for me, most of my colleagues are cool!

don't lose your cool. chill babe.