You're dreaming? Wake-up

I once told my friend that once you wake up and you remember you have been dreaming then you should not continue sleeping cause you already have enough. Why?

there are phases in your sleep.
your body and your mind will sleep, so you are in deep sleep. this is when everything is resting and should not be disturbed.

once you start dreaming, your mind has woken up because it has enough sleep and then time to get up.

i remember the time when i slept one whole day and dreamt about one thing after another. the moment i woke up i didnt feel refreshed but tired. how come i said to myself. i have been sleeping i.e resting one whole day! why am i still tired?

this is what is being formulated:
when i start dreaming.. the mind start working and drain the energy from other part of the body. so the longer you dreaming.. the more tired you feel.

thus the best sleep is when you woke feeling refreshed and remember that you have not dream at all!! you mind and body have been resting all the while.

so whenever you woke after a deep sleep.. go on and wake up and start doing something.. shake ur body or whatever that is other that continue sleeping.

make sense?

Why BN lost the 5 states in 2008?

Kelantan and Kedah : they dont need no more modernization

Selangor: Too many many social problems, too much corruption they believe.

Penang: Corruption in BN

Perak: Unhappy with these old unchaging candidates, e.g. Samy Vellu

How do I score my SPM?

Hi. Now I am trying to share something useful to those who are seeking. Might be useful if you too can score SPM. I scored 9A1. Straight As since I only took 9 subjects.

I dont go tuition. and I am no genius. I dont really learn that fast. But I did understand what I learnt over times.

How do i score?
Few months before the exam I start buying all these practice books with answers in the back. So I did everyone of the so called forecasted questions and checked each answers. So i learnt from mistakes. I also did past years SPM papers. All of them and looked at the answers and analyzed all the answers given.

So? Thats all i did. Did many questions, looked and checked all the answers. And learnt how to answer the questions. So i believe this is what they basically do in tuition. thus, dont waste your time, your parents money and do it yourself. You can do it !

I'm Hired

A month has passed since I report for duty. It was fun to actually work. ~HAHA~ especially a week before raya. Then I had to buy the ticket last minute and it cost us a fortune. Then I had to change the date, another hundred flew to Tony Fernandes.

Job was OK. Not so hard except for the first three weeks, I was bored with nothing to do. And they were unprepared for new exec. like me. But now it's OK, I guess.

No time to spend

Holly molly, it has been more than a month since i write. that spring break we went to seattle. spent almost a week at the same time jeopardizing my grades. well i had several reports to write and none of them came out the way i hope it supposed to. but all done is done i got my papers back we are on the right track hoping that all the calculations we made is really what it is supposed to be. frankly i have no idea to write. it has been raining, i lost my love, my only love that can transfer files back and forth. i will try harder to find her, misery i feel but not hopeless. believing in God, what happened is God willing through our reason. English??

Monday holiday

Whenever a Monday is a holiday i often confused myself with having to think the Monday as Sunday and then the Tuesday as Monday. it gets really confusing when the classes are all following the Monday schedule on the Tuesday. it may be because normally students don't have class or rather less class than on Monday. well, tomorrow i shall not forget that it is actually a Tuesday or i may end up missing coming from work.

now i now how it feel when we are asked to design something. there a lots of things we don't know and have to guess, assume, approximate and such. it makes everyone in the class uncomfortable since we don't really have the numbers needed to design the thing we are suppose to design. they may be lots of way to design so no one correct answer is approached. with people thinking differently, we get lots of solutions for a given problem. this is really a smart way to learn, i wonder why we were not exposed to this kind of thing during our high schools so that the schools will generate more creativity from the students.

shoveling yesterday

the sight of snow makes me wonder sometimes how beautiful it is really to be here, watching the snow falls to street, covering the trees, the cars and all that is outside waiting to covered by the snow. Few days ago, a day of valentine in 2007, big snowstorm hit the upper east side of the US. some parts get even the whole house covered with snow. there is nothing i know that can prevent it but hearing the news was kind of interesting to me watching how something as big as house can be totally covered by snow. but well in my place we did not get that much snow, only about 15 to 20 inches. but then the next morning the snow trucks came and shovel the streets leaving a big pile at the sides of road making it hard for anyone to walk by foot. those car left at the sides of the snow then got covered in the midst of cleaning the street so vehicles can travel through and then people can get to work and go to classes. little everyone who never experience snow know that sprinkling salt at the snow will melt the ice making it wet all over the street. well the day after the snowstorm i have to wear my insulation shoes since the whole road is covered with melting ice as result of interaction with salt. so due to the snow being shovel to the sides of the road, my car was also covered and well we did not act in hurry to clear it from the snow since we were not using cars to get to class but rather a bus, each an everyday when there is class. perhaps it is interesting to show how the car was covered. so the picture was put up, yet risking in exposing my identity to the public but well who cares. no one knows. so when finally the weekends came, it was then became the best day to shovel. to dig our car so that we can see the real car underneath the snow. those who live in houses i saw them shoveling seems like non stop from am to pm so that their driveway can be cleared. it was not a boy or a man but rather a middle aged woman. from her aura i felt that i should also be doing something i have been put off doing ever since the storm stopped. so it was all done yesterday and a result i tired myself out making me lifeless throughout the day but however after a good lay during the hour of 2 to 4, that night i was refreshed to make some groceries as well as visiting a family man in town. we were served with coconut milk rice and if i will try translating the literal meaning it will be called fat rice. aha. serves you right if you are trying to introduce this kind of food to any English speaking person, they not be willing to eat them.

February

February is the shortest month .. i like. It is fresh and ferpect.

But there is gotta be more to life. I have 2 ongoing projects. Ongoing lab reports. Each week. I think that I have made a wise decision to keep this semester quite empty. Although I work on 2 weekdays. It is like taking 11+14=28 Credits all together. Come to think of it, it is kind of busy. But I have friday, saturday and sunday off. which is cool. I enjoy on thursday nite, fridays and saturdays, haha.

I have also been naughty. I write sins on me when no one is looking. I keep forgetting that God is looking and angels are writing. It makes me wonder sometimes that my inner darkness emerges when no one is around. So do i need someone with me all the time. So that my inner darkness will shy away and not surface.

10 Muharam

Tomorrow is 10 Muharam, the tenth day in Islamic calendar. It is the day of remembrance for prophet Musa having been saved by Allah with his followers from the evil of Pharaoh. It is encouraged to fast on this day as well as the day before. I am trying to fast so I hope it will go through.

So today is almost two weeks after classes started. I have projects in design class and fortran, as well as labs in ep lab. Those three things are enough to keep me busy. The design class is going very very slowly as for me, since I have done little about the design class.

Topics I think I should be researching: Properties of an aluminum sheet metal.
1) force, stress, tension
2) inductance
3) dent

A trip to Hilo

Arrived at Hilo on Saturday morning at around 7 and it was raining. In fact, it was the rainy season during my stay and it was during the winter break, so it was about 5 jan in 2007. The airport is a small one and it really looks like a rural kind of airport with wooden walls and floor. It was open and there was no airconditioned once we step out of the bridge from the airplane. Instuitively, I rent a car so that we can see the whole island in the fastest and keisurely possible. We stayed for 3 days and it was raining everyday. Luckily when we arrived at one point the rain just stopped and the sun shows itself. We maanaged to find the south most point of the US and looking at the sea, the wind was blowing ferociously. A few minutes standing at the shore, we were greeted with a heavy flow of rain blowing towards the lands. Our hope of finding the black plus green sand beach shattered through the glass of the rain drops. We also found out that Mauna Kea in the big island of Hawaii is the tallest mountain as measured from the bottom of the sea.

A waiter in restaurant

I was once a waiter working in a Turkish restaurant. It was not really a difficult job and the pay was satisfactory. I remembered taking orders from customers, and there were sometimes customers who ordered something not in the menu and often times I was annoyed. Why wouldn't everyone just order something that IS on the menu? Why would anyone make my life miserable? Why? Why? I was a customer and always be a customer in some restaurant and sometimes I would just do the same. Sometimes, my experience stop me from ordering something different from the menu. I would rather spend more time studying the menu rather than asking the waiter or ask the waiter to put more of that, less of this, without that thing or ordering something out of the menu. I once ordered a plain fried egg when it is not really in the menu. I felt guilty sometimes but it was way back when I had not been a waiter. Indeed being a waiter has taught me some important lesson in life. I quited the job because I was bored. I am easily bored. Imagine having to do the same thing each time you come to work. I am not that kind of a person. I just could not stand it. Especially when I am also a student studying to get a degree. It was not really easy to be a student when you really want to excel in your studies. Nevertheless, I feel like working again since I need some money. I am now surveying some position working in the campus.

Gambling

In a casino I saw a lot of elders playing the gambling machine hoping to get their luck strike thus obtaining a lot of money. However, the rule of gambling will not let you win that easily. The probability of winning the biggest jackpot is very close to zero. Rich people know about this thus making it a competition to build the grandest hotel with lots of casino slot machines hence making them rich and richer everyday. The majority of those playing the casino machines tend to bet on everything on every choice possible. Intuitively, they will win some, more frequent than those who bet little on few choices. Nevertheless, they always end up losing more than than what they are winning. In the end they have nothing and often go home with less than they bring in. So I think we can guess where the money goes; to people like Mr Trump.

Friendster

Some things are meant to be done in private when no one is looking. For me friendster is something I am reluctant to share with anyone. I will only access my friendster account when no one is with me or looking what I am doing. On very occasional basis will I only reveal my friendster activity to others.

Booking a Hotel

I have learned that booking a hotel is best done online rather than on-site or by phone .. unless you really no know how talk and get a good bargain. Unfortunately, being not so sweet a talker I was unable to get the best price when booking a hotel room by phone. The price was higher than those offered online. Some good website to book hotels are:

hotels.com
hotwire.com
or just do a google search.

The fact is that hotels know that when they are using online services to promote their rooms, they must put the best price possible since they know that other hotels are doing the same. Smart travelers will always do research to see which hotels are offering the best price. Booking by phone is in fact a great opportunity for the hotels to give higher price since the people who is answering the customer will want a greater commission through the booking. In conclusion, next time I will always use the net to find the best bargain when traveling!

End of 2006

As with any other people who writes blog, or diary or anything, I will put a conclusion to the year of 2006. It seems that 2006 is pretty different for me. I have started writing to YOU in this year of 2006, beginning to feel extremely lazy at the end of this year 2006.
Have I grown matured over this year.
My my my oh my. I have only one semester to go as of today, which is spring 2007.
So what is the plan ? ? ?
The year will start with me going to Hawaii. What better way to start a new year than to explore a totally different place. I will go on my own, well theoretically since my partner will always be agreeing to whatever things I do. It is a good practice in a sense, since I will have to do a lot of planning. Every plan must have a backup plan, well at least one backup. The worst thing could happen is that we will not be able to rent a car. Which, will leave us to the second option of exploring the islands by bus, which I think will not be as efficient as renting a car. So no matter what we will do what ever possible thing to do in order to secure a car. Although renting a car could be quite costly since, I nor my partner is above 25. Meaning that we will be charged with underage fees which could be about $25 a day. That's about $150 extra for 6 days! I hope it will be worth it..
So what about the semester? I don't think I will be repeating any subject since my desire to work hard has decreased tremendously. I am planning to focus and really give my 100% on my design project in order to secure an A. I really hope God will always guide my heart and my mind to achieve my expectation for this coming semester.
Love life? No love. I mean no relationship. I dream of a miracle. but it will not happen without work. without hope my life would be hopeless. without love my life would be lifeless. so then i will spend some quality time with friends in order to compensate my love life. but my friends are becoming more and more burden to me. so i need to look further, find new faces, speak with different people and be open to the whole world. then i really need to have a good sleep.
So with people always in my room, looking at what i am doing, it is really hard to live my secret utopian life. Little they know about me and less i will share with them. When I tell somebody a secret, it will not be a secret because that somebody will need to share that secret with somebody else, so it is kind of chain-reaction. So my conclusion is to keep everything to myself and share it by mean of writing this blog. This blog is so secret that no one that i know will be reading this, I hope and God forbids any of my friend or anyone i know will be reading this blog.

Failures

I failed again this time.
B B - for my core COCO and EPOW
A - for my arts
?? - i hope it is not less than B for analog.

whatever things making me down again
making me down under
i feel like quitting studying

Resolute Numbness

I am not a native speaker of english nor am i very fluent in it. it has been more than three years coming to the united states and i still find myself struggling to speak in english. i feel that i am wasted yet i still have like another 6 months or so to finally improve my communication skills as this would be my last chance in the united states. so i feel numb. today right here right now i will outlines somethings that has been running through my head:
1) i really really need A's for this semester. i wish i could just be sure about this but i am not. i feel like i have to try so hard to get the glimpse of As. Last night it looks easy to get an A but i still hope nothing screw up
2) i feel like i have no absolute commitment in anything. therefore i will try not to engage in any sort of of elationship.
3) i am fickle. i have no absolute idea what i will do let say in the next few hours. let alone planning a gigantic trip to hawaii. what i plan will change. what i am doing will not last. i will just say that i am spontaneous.
4) i dont feel like seeing people right now. so i lock my doors and shut down the messenger so nobody can communicate with me. i just need this time alone.
5) i think i am through with her. here is what i think about her:
>> she has no interest in me
>> she is a big spender
>> she is too self centered, always think she is cute and all that
>> she got another guy hanging on to her arms
>> she looks strange, she dress strangely beautiful
>> she is too stunning and outgoing
>> i dont really know her
>> she dont really no me
>> she dont care about me
>> she never wish me anything
>> she is uninterested
so i think i will just stop hoping for the miracle and let her go. let she go wherever she wants. i dont care. i mean really who cares. i am cute and attractive. why would i need her. btw, she has a boyfriend that looks like girlfriend. how disgusting looking at them both together. so i will not bother. let she smiles, yet her smiles are so sweet. so let she smiles. thinking just another thing about herself. i am done. bye bye

Last Day of Fall 06

Today as the title is the last day of fall 2006. that mean that i have only one semester to go. for i am always intrigued with how fast something happens when it has actually finished while during the beginning of the semester it feels really slow. so is this the relativity of time by einstein on how we look at time can actually effect on how the time itself is perceived by us human being. i am glad though that it has finished for i have always been waiting for this. one class that i am not satisfied is analog. for it has to many things covered and i am actually dumbfounded on how to tackle this subject.

Finale

Season finale is just around the corner waiting for me to step into the dark facing wrath of the insane. making look like an insane myself so that people will look at me with eyes that bulges that they look like they are going to fall off from the head making me and you sick of looking the disgusting sight. Ok, so actually what i am going to say is that my finals is just a week away and i am not sure whether i am ready or not. for i have been studying and i have been getting tired of studying so sometimes i didnt study so sometimes i play games so sometimes i turn to friendster looking at people that i didnt know just trying to find the perfect match for me. so sometimes i daydream wandering around or looking at flight tickets craving for a crazy escape from this crazy world of mine. actually is not crazy at all. it is just that i am tired and soggy from the materials that we covered in classes and lectures. looking at my lecturers make me feel like vomiting since i hardly could ever understand their true intentions of teaching. often halfway down the class i would fall asleep or thinking about something else. but really i should not be thinking like this since finals is just next week. so what should be the big deal about the finals? well, they really will determine my grades. It is either i do well to score or do badly to fail. i have to choose and i have about one week to prepare. so please wish me luck, pray for my success and hopefully God will help me for He always help me in doing things. btw, i bought a ticket to honolulu but i didnt even prepare any plan for the week stay in hawaii. will i be making fool out of myself?

ThanksGiving 2006

well at least, maybe this is the first time i really appreciate the break. i spent the morning yesterday studying?! and some part tonight studying again?! am i not enjoying my thanksgiving? indeed. i am really grateful (to God) for having this holiday, or break from the lectures, lab and such. yup i need time to catch up. and yes, lecturers are kind enough to help. they gave me assignments and exams to prepare for. but hell yeah i did spent some quality time this short break. got to play for the indoor soccer tournament and hell yeah we qualified for the playoff. its five teams. so only one team did not get to be in the playoff this coming sunday. this morning also we went for the black friday sale. went to target to buy the 400gb hardisk at $150 but alas we came a bit too late. but however, my friends bought 4 lcd each 20" for $170 which is a grreat bargain. i mean if you want to sale it. you can get for almost double the price. right now right here in my room i am writing this blog i am listening to "summer jam remix". i can't get you off my mind. yes HER. hahaha. i dont even know her. yet i like her. am i such a loser. well not in DOTA anyway. remember the time when seniors were here with us, spent like crazy hours playing that dota. thank God there are no more. the most we played for one night is three times. which is not as bad. huhu. so after the break there will be two more weeks of classes and then final. can't wait for the semester to finish. can't wait to do things i will never ever think of doing. winter break? no plan yet. me >> spontaneous.