resolutions

This is the time of the year when i will start reflecting and thinking on what i have done, what i could have done and what i would do next. This is the time of the year when i would be receiving new calendars and diary to start on a new leaf. I already hang the new ones and threw the old ones away. Looking at the dates, I first make notes on the public holidays for the year and start thinking on the possible dates for my holiday to kuching or elsewhere in the world.

so of course there are things i think i should have done, therefore it has to be carry forward the year is coming to an end really fast. for the muslim, the new year starts a few days earlier which is tomorrow. the new year in islam starts after the first migration of the muslim to medina to start on a new life. similarly, i should be starting new life beginning from tomorrow, similar things i have been doing for over twenty years. but years come and go and do not remember if i have started new life each time the year changes.

i can do it, i can change to a new me. yeah i mean it, i am feeling really serious right now. because i am supposed to be better each day. but i have waited, for i should not have waited because when i wait nothing will happen.

sometimes it is funny because after a while the strength in me will just fade away and often i will blame the surrounding. i am blaming that someone or something has stole my future, letting me down and under.

but of course i could not do it just like that without full intervention from GOD. i need to pray and ask for guidance. so of course, the need for solid notes for what i am planning to do in 2009 is crucial so that i could always refer to it later:

1. be less mean, but it is not quantifiable. so i should put something realistic on how less mean i should be. being less mean to anyone is to be humble and down to earth. listen to ideas but be firm with my statements.
2. be more friendly, greet people and get to know others. you know, when we meet someone new at a meeting or conference, i seldom ask for names but just making trivial conversation. although i would not want to invade for any privacy, i should at least make an effort to remember name and faces.
3. be on time as i hate to wait, therefore i should be assuming that no ones like to wait for others because time is too precious to be spent to wait on someone for too long.
   
4. be more understanding, by trying to be on someone else shoes.
5. be more committed to things i am doing, especially in helping others. i would not want to promise anyone anything but in the end would only be doing it halfheartedly.
6. be more focus on what i want. by not beating around the bush but to be direct to the point. i should not be assuming that people are able to read my mind. so i should be telling them what i want instead of giving never ending hint.
7. not to be too greedy with anything. because what we get, we need to share, i.e. money, knowledge, food, etc.