Disturbed

Feeling a desire to be lonely. to reflect and think.
with others by my side i feel uneasy. i feel like escaping.
so i locked the door outside. so no one can get in.
i walk. alone and keep quiet. the feeling inside was so heavy.
after a while. nope a night. and a morning. i feel relieved.
i have think it through and reflect.
sometimes we just need to stop and think.
and to think carefully. we need focus.
i have always this feeling when i see him.
i feel uneasy. i think he is not being reall.
but it is just my thought? after a heavy thought.
ihave decide to ignore it. and get along with everyone.
forget the past and move on.
forget the problems and start a new beginning.
when the feeling starts again. i will stop and think.
yesterday was fruitless. slept a lot.
maybe its the rain?