Unwanted

Too many lies in this world.
When girls flirt with the bad guys.
Yet they marry the good guys.

A Man cried over a Man

AOnce, a man came to Rasulallah crying.
"Why do you cry, my friend."
"I love you ya Rasulallah. Yet everyday I could not escape the feeling that you will go one day. You will be at the side of Allah, with all the pious and I, ya Rasulallah, may not be able to see you again."
"Do your best, my friend, in this world and for the hereafter. May God place you along at His side."

Anonymous

Whatever I type, I wont give any specifics.
Since I have no plan whatsoever to reveal my identity.
Let alone anyone who knows me is to read any of this entry.
Let me be free in writing. Without hope to lose anynomity.
Then this is the best part of writing a blog.
I can choose to hide my identity.
To let everything be a mystery.
For an internity if i could.
So nothing could escape.
Unwantedly.
From me.
End.

Missed it again

I missed it again this morning. though I prayed not to miss it ever.
Yet it was me all along.

I regret. again, this morning.
Could I blame the drug i took last night?

God, please, forgives me!
A man who always makes mistakes.

Root of Injustice

When you cannot restraint anger within yourself. You are invoking injustice be done to things around you. Be it you friends, family or even the environment. So let your anger flows, to places inside you. by remembering God the almighty. He who sees whatever happens. He who knows everything. He who makes things happen.

So have faith in Him. Let Him be in your thoughts always.

I LOVE HER ><

I have a crush. a crush so big. it has been years.
but i have kept it well inside me.
now it is time to go public. yes. on a blog.

It was a love at first sight. Her looks I always remember.
I have kept in touch with her. but my feeling was never realize.
I like her. I dont want her to move away if I tell.
so i keep quiet about it.
let God decides. please. God, help me.

A bit high

I am on drug.
I just drank NyQuil.
It's really strong. but i am guaranteeed to enjoy a good night sleep tonight.

I have been drinking this when im feeling unwell.
A little of flu, would make me drink this.
I trust it. and I trust God.

It takes only a few minutes for me to get high.
I will sleepy. and I cannot think straight.
Yet I can still type whot is on my mind.

It is cold tonight outside. but it is warm inside.
I am sure that it will be tough to get up tomorrow morning.
Class at ten. and it will be a lab or a studio (as they prefer it to be called)
Last week's studio was a disaster. I know nothing. My friends know nothing. and the TA was useless. I just let it go. I hope that they will let it go as well. Please. God, help me.

The Town

WOWO
Where am I?
A little bit far from the capital. 30 mins drive actually but then it is a very small town. Without the schools, this place will be a retiree town. Full of old people. Luckily, they reproduce and they have kids.
Here, is quiet. Just what I want. Quiet. Quite surprising at first actually. Not what I imagined way back home, then.

Now this is a technique I learnt, some time ago.
Also, this is nothing recent.
Yet no one has seen it before.
So this is the premiere.
You should be proud.
....
I will.

Who am I

I am a male. in early twenties. in a foreign country.
I am a student. doing dual. maintaining CGPA.
I am a muslim. believe in Allah. practise the teachings.

I am peace. no trouble. no kiling. no wars.
I am normal. go with the flow. where others go.
I am rationale. no radical ideas. just living by.

I like food. I eat.
I like quiet. I shut up.
I like privacy. I lock my doors.

I hate smells. I avoid.
I hate socialize. I stay.
I hate to continue. I stop.

Love the world

atheists - they dont believe in any god.
but those who believe, mostly believe in life after death.
they believe that life in this world in just a transit.
yet they tried so hard.
so when you are in transit in any place.
do u try ur best?
damn YES.
but do we really love the world?
NO.
we know it is just a transit.
so we do our best.
but not in a way that would save the world.
we say, we dont live for hundreds of years.
so let the world destroy after that.
we only care for the world we live.
so we do things. things that would destroy the world one day.
one day long after our death.
so who cares.

People write, so I write?

Have u ever wondered why people write?
Too many answer to that question.
Yet I will tell u why i write.
because i have time.
i can make time for this.
why not? since its eearly in the morning.
yet i have lots to do.
yet i wanna write.
so the answer to first question is because people want to write.
its not because they have too much time.
or have nothing to do.
if i have nothing to do, i can do other things.
such as walk, listen, watch, jump or anything else than writing.
but today as of now i choose to write.
suddenly a thought come.
is write even the correct word.
isnt this what you call blogging.
writing whats on your mind.
so if I am not writing or typing whats on my mind, isnt it not called blogging.
now i am confused.
so i stop.
and here is my first entry. tada!