She must politely decline my offer for the time being

So NJZ replied today with a pretty long email explaining her circumstances at the moment. She is really really busy at the moment. But she has thought about the proposal and came to a conclusion that she does not know me too well to say yes or no at the moment. But her answer was stated in the title of this post. It's ok, no harm done. She prays that I will find my soul mate soon.

After some time looking at ceiling while lying on my bed, I called EY just to say hi. She told me that she is making herself busy (she still is not working), she went back to Penang and planning to go to Jakarta.

Ready for another rejection

Always. I am always ready. It's not something new. So I received an email from NJZ that she will reply soon as she was busy with her internship.

She addressed me as Hello my dear X. X being my name.

Well, she likes to confuse me. I am perplexed, why can't she just say Yes or No?

What with her addressing me as "... my dear ..."

Am i being over analyzing?

Is she preparing a letter of rejection? Well, she might be afraid that I might get offended so she addressed me as such?

Well, I am prepared for anything. If she accepts then I will do the necessary arrangement i.e. start by telling my parents.

If otherwise, I will venture out to the open sea with an open heart.

If only i can simply choose

Yesterday i went to a conference regarding fiqh and solah, more than 2/3 of the audiences i believe are women. There are some beauties that i wish i can just pick and ask for marriage. They are just beautiful as if the beauty comes from the inside.

How i wish i could just talk to them but it seemed so unappropriate. I should devise a way of getting such girls and such events.

Yesterday just before i went to the conference, i sent a confession email to NJZ, saying how i wish that she will become the mother of my children!

I am yet to hear from her.

The closure, goodbye EY

It was the last phone conversation. Short and direct.

I was no longer feeling the same attraction as before. I don't think us won't work.

So the phone call was just a confirmation that I am not being bad. That I am not dissapearing just like that. I disappear because of a mutual understanding.

Asked her for dinner. She said she had plan tonight. Asked me to ask Aereeta or Su instead. To me it was a complete rejection.

Why I should no longer chase her:
- she was not that beautiful
- she cares too much for her beauty, she went for vitamin c and collagen injection, quite often
- she is hairy, she needs waxing at least once a month
- she is indecisive
- she forgets
- she cares too much of her last ex
- she is a player, she went out with lots of guys wanting to be just friends
- she can be too sexy at times
- she is lazy
- she always wakes up late in the afternoon
- she carries too many baggages, her house is financed by one of her ex
- she used to be pampered by many men, she's spoilt
- she is high maintenance

So goodbye EY.
I lost MA too.

So what's next?
I'm gonna wait till my birthday, then I will propose to NJZ.

In the meantime, I'll open up to new girls.
In sha Allah I will find my true love in China.