Hello 2013

As usual I will set a target for the year that has just begun. I just got back from GSC Garden with arena and Aretha. It's a couple seat but there I was seating alone in front of the twins. It's not a pity since I got to stretch my leg up front. In this meeting I saw how Zareef care about arena and coincidently he called her from Langkawi. They talked for quite a bit until Aretha asked arena to stop. I met Aretha's bf and it was a shocked that he was an elderly man with money and title that we shall call datook faddhil. He paid for the drinks that we had at Bangsar Village and I saw how Aretha was using him for his money and there were kisses at hands and cheeks between them. It was a shock also that arena was also into the game and how they were complimenting each other. They were talking about how they can use his money to buy stuff and pamper themselves.

It was then that I realized that I may not want to marry arena. Firstly, she is indecisive. Most of the decisions were made by Aretha or someone else. She was a follower and easy to be persuaded to especially by someone close to her. Looking at how they were planning to use datook's money for themselves, I am afraid. I am afraid that I will not be able to cater for her needs.

My target for this year is to get married. No matter how and when, it would be this year, 2013. I am afraid that I wouldn't be able to fulfill arena that I am planning to find love with someone purer and good to the eyes. I hope Allah will guide me, and only Him I shall put my fate to. Concurrently, I will strive to find the dream girl to be my wife. It looks like January is a month for me to find love. As such, I will ask en to accompany me in this venture of love.

There's only one KPI this year, it is for me to get married.

Btw, I did asked arena to marry me somehow, but I am yet to hear her response. So the KPI for last year is merely meeting expectation, I guess? I haven't yet find my true love. So sad. What a sad report of last year just like Les Meserable, that I feel like puking.

The newest addition to le familia

Dear ipad, we have come a long way today to write without typing what I have in mind. What do you speak is not exquisite, but of course it is a new way of communicating with the world. I know that I have spoken differently but iPad has always seem to suggest words which are not in my mind.

I don't and I limbo but I always hesitate including things that I'm not dead. Yeah right. That's what iPad seems to understand me. Perhaps I have to practice to speak clearly in order for the iPad to understand what I really meant.

Damn I can't stop myself

This is truly dissapointing of me. I can't even keep a promise to myself. I just called her and she picked up, she was running at her gym.

Will she miss me?

I tried to call her last tuesday. Unanswered. Then she told me she was having dinner. But then she got home at 12.42 am. Well, of course I was asleep already. Though I waited for some time. But later that morning i sent her a message saying I miss her. That was wednesday. Would she reply? Should she say she misses me too? Well, we she did not, till this hour. So I wont communicate with her until Monday because somehow I told her in my message that I would like to take her out for dinner. I am a man of my words, so whether I want to or not, I will need to ask her whether she would like to go for the dinner. If she fail to answer her phone on that Monday, then that would be the last she would hear from me. After which I will find a new girl, most probably I will try to hook up with MA, hopefully she is still available. So this would be your last chance EY! Make good use of it.

She quit two weeks ago

today is 13/12/12, if she were to quit two weeks ago.. then it would be around 29/11/2012..
perhaps her last day was the last day of november, then starting december, she was no longer working.
perhaps it was because of her client that she quit, or was it her boss?
she told me today after i called her twice

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

This is plagiarism, copied and pasted from an email from a friend

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you. 

peeking peeking

at intai-intai we sat and we ate. later i popped the cherry in my heart, she smiled in silence.